[our [made in the ..] love]

(Please take a moment and remember those who have given their lives for us.)

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Hello Monday,

I knew what I had wanted to write for this day (11th) the frequent number that I constantly see. However, before I started off I had to take a moment to recognize the special day before I could start off anything. I hope you took a moment. As for today's post I thought today was a good day to bring on over a post from my old blog to here. It's funny, because I was trying to re-read it the other day, which then turned into skimming, which turned into me closing it off. I didn't manage to finish reading or skimming it through, because I was too tired, overwhelmed, yet it seemed a lot at the same time. I thought what a better day than anyone to make this post today on here. So here it is and I hope you enjoy it and it was written by me. (Originally: How funny on a Monday on the 11th of June, 2012) How.. I don't know the word but wow. Today is Monday, November 11th, 2013. All I can say is that is pretty.amazing. 

Dear future boyfriend. fiancé husband.

i have trust, you to know that i have been longing and waiting a very long time.. twenty-something years to be exact. i have utterly anticipating for your arrival into my life and to sweep me off my feet. i have a share of fun moments and moments of laughter along with love. i am also one to live for the silent moments when no one has to say anything. i believe the most curious moments is the beauty within you, the whole of you from sadness, laughter, joy, anger, the flaws that define you, that make you who you are. the little things that you hold within and no one else knows. i have those moments. i have those to share and to hear, everything from the not so greatness to the complete and utter buckled knees down in the ground in complete awe and unbelievable joy of life. i am one to experience your dreams that you have accomplished, want to accomplish and i have trust in you to know how proud of you i am.

i am one to travel with you to a lot of beautiful amazing places as well as just sitting in the midst of each other's presence talking. i am one to live for going on cute little dates, you know like.. to the zoo, aquarium, a picnic with a blanket, food and a gorgeous field with beautiful flowers. i am one to live for an ice cream date and a trip to Hawaii together. i am one to experience life with you and i together in a space that is ours to call home. i am one to come home and hear how your day went. i am one to live for heart melting good morning messages that leave a girl smiling like a floating balloon high in the air so high. i am one to eat breakfast with you while seeing your eyes light up when you talk and to have that feeling of looking at you with you already staring. i am your friend first and foremost. then second your complete and soulful love. i am one to live to see your playful side, that ends up in cute fun laughter wrestling with each other playfully. i am one to hold your hands and make road trips and unplanned trips. i have a bazillion photos of not only you but of us together. i am one to cuddle with you whenever. i am one to spend days together that are lazy and only require pj's with movies, books, food and conversation. i am one to wear your comfy hoody when i am cold. i am one to leave you cute messages when you wake up, going to work, at work or away. i am one who lives to cook together and eat ice cream under the warm sun. i am one to love you with all my heart that i possibly can. i am one to kiss you and have hurdles of butterflies always floating from the pit of my stomach. i am one to be with you watching the sunrise and sunset. i have trust to capture your heart when i walk into a room and your eyes twinkle in awe. i am one to eat at each other's favorite places and buy you gifts. i have the smell of you invoked around me. i am one to mess up your hair, yet kiss you goodnight. i am one to be that girl who can rock one of your shirts and look sexy doing it because i can't find anything in my closet. i am one to fall asleep whilst on the phone with you. i am one to feel the sensation from your hugs climbing up my spine. i have trust our relationship to have dreams that are ours, together. i am one to live to walk in the rain and have deep conversations along with a million questions moments. i am one to have musical outbursts and random dancing moments. i have you to love my friends and i have love to love yours. i am one to live for the uncontrollable laughter along with the sad and happy tears. i am one to give you unconditional love. i live to see the reason your happy in life. i am one to see you chill out in sweats yet oh so sexy in jeans and a t-shirt and hot and heart melting to the pit of the floor in a suit/dressed up. i am one to live to kiss in the rain and sleep on a beach together. i am one to tell you how i feel. i am one to spend Christmas in New York and New Years Eve. i am one to camp on the beach and have a bonfire. i am one to live to go on a coffee date and fly across to the city lights. i have a treasure that cannot be forgotten. i have every moment written in my own very diary. i have something to look back on. i am one to go to New York and California all in the same trip. i am one to experience the history of London with you. i am one to visit the beautiful country of Croatia together. i am one to lay there with you just thinking. i am one to feel your comfort. i am one to love bqq's. i am one to hear your favorite songs and see your favorite movies. i have that feeling of beauty to wash in. i am one to have stupid arguments every now and again that means nothing in the end. i am one to get photos done of us together by someone marvelous like _____ and meg courtney.. perhaps both! i am one for piggy backs and getting to wake up beside you. i have you to be passionate, ambitious and confident in everything you want in life. i am one to be in the grace of your intelligence, helpfulness and independence. i am one to listen to you speak and to hear your advice. i am one to live for fun and you to achieve your educational goals. i am one to go to the movies with you and watch anything and everything, especially romantic ones. i am one to go to a concert with you. i am one to enjoy the presence of your family. i have trust in us to be positive towards each other and to allow each other to value one another's potential to grow along with love, fail and try again. i am one to visit Australia with you. i am one to be truly blessed and thankful for the amazing person that you are. i have you to push me beyond limits - out of the box limits. i am one to take days trips, surprise trips and no destination trips. i am one to stargaze in the back of your truck if you have one with blankets and pillow. i have to have those moments that are full of laughter because i scared you and you get me back when i least expect it. i have to go to six flags and Disney with you. i am one to trust you to be there for me and be okay with that i am okay. i have trust to know that i am happy. i am one to have my dreams to come true with you. i am one to go on double dates. 

i am one to experience your kindness, joy, love and care. i am one to witness the depths of your soul, in the midst of everything i am to become your fiancee to then become your wife. i am to marry my soul-mate and love of my life. i am to dream up all the possibilities of married life. i am to share a home, oh so gorgeous and full of love. i am to have the most incredible children and them to have the most amazing father ever. i have you to be full of joy with them. i am one to give you healthy children but as a deep desire also a beautiful son. a beautiful desired longing that i have to have in my life, with you in our home. i am to have play dates with the friends we have that have children. i am one to go on vacations as a family. i am one to have a family and friends Disney gathering together. i am one to have fun. i have trust our family is filled with so much love and warmth. i have trust our children have amazing godparents. i have to be able to watch our children get married too. i am one to live to hear the sweet words of mommy and daddy. i am one to be the best parent and wife to you and our children. i have trust all your dreams be fulfilled. i have your support, love and most importantly the key ingredient communication. i have trust in you to be successful on your own but as well as together as a family. i have loyalty, honesty, patience and respect within our relationship and being able to give our children good examples of that from our relationship. i have trust our children to be exposed to well rounded people and enjoy tons of activities whether in school or out of school. i have to live to experience every moment from them playing hockey to dance. i have our dream home and a wrapped front porch with a swinging chair swing. i have a swing or tire swing hanging out of a tree. i have a family room with just television and games. i have each of our children to have their own room, decorated how they want. i have our house full of warm colors, yet rich flooring. i am one to feel the sun's warm rays through the window as we are waking up in bed or just laying next to each other. i have faith our wedding to be lovely with gorgeous photos and a videographer. i have you to love our children no matter the circumstances that life throws at me. i have you to love our children unconditionally, no matter what. i have you to promise me that with your whole heart. i have you to be happy yourself and unconditionally loved. i have you to be empathetic towards our children when they need it, yet also someone they look up to. i am to watch our children grow up from elementary into junior high to high school and off to college/university. i am one to have faith our children have and find a beautiful love like ours with someone they care about and want to marry. i am one to go on walks and to the sand park with our children. i am thankful for everything that comes in my life and ours. i am one to witness the giggling moments of our kids and there success. i have lots of bear hugs and kisses from our children to the both of us. i am one to travel to Spain or Brazil with you. 

i am always pondering thoughts in my mind and as well with beautiful friends. i especially love sharing stargazing life moments with them because of wanting the same thing even though they have somebody. i have faith until i get to feel all the things i express to them until my time with you comes. i am one to have you to meet them because they're an amazing part of my life. i have faith my really good friends to be apart of this beautiful love story at my wedding as maid of honor and bridesmaids  i have faith you will like them as much as i do. i have faith you will be good friends with their husbands. i have a number of them to choose to be our children's godparent likewise you do too with your friends. i know i am pushing my boundaries by putting this out there but i have been thinking about it a lot over the years and i really would like that. i have faith our children to be really good friends and have a good rounded connection of good people. i am one to allow our children to have sleep overs at each other's houses. i am one to watch their children well they go on a date night. i am one for our families to have trips together and double dates. i have faith to be unbelievable friends for ever and ever and ever. i have faith in our friends being apart of our life of being friends. 

i am this kind of love. i am our kind of love.
i have this kind of love. i have our kind of love. 

I know today's post is perhaps intense for those who never seen or read it the first time I wrote it on my other blog. I came across this dear future wife posts randomly last year and was wowed, astonished because I've never really thought about doing something like this. Writing a letter with my thoughts, this came to me as something that I would like to do. However, it didn't come to me right away when I had the idea because I was in the "that's so cool" interesting mode. I never thought about it more deeply but of course the one night I was reading my book and browsing that same site I came across if from, it hit me. It hit me more as I looked into it and what others had done. So here I was the one night thoroughly tired, exhausted yet trying to finish my book but took a break to browse online and boom it just started pouring out of me. All my thoughts and everything deep inside of me was coming out. I didn't finish it in that night, actually morning of course because it was already 2 am. I continued the next day and thoughts just kept pouring out even as I would leave it to go do something. I had been continuing to write thoughts for the last couple of days so that I could post this as soon as possible when I had the idea. 

I know this is very personal but it's something I want to share on this blog and I hope you enjoy this post and it is very long, so for those who stuck around and read it all thank you truly. 

I hope you write your future love, something whether you share it on your own blog or a personal diary. I hope you have been inspired. If you have read my previous versions, you will know that I have changed the wording because each time I try to make it more present felt and not in the distance unable to reach out to catch it. It will also be in the distant future if I leave it that way and I don't want to leave it feeling like that so I try to make it more present as much as possible as I can think of at the moment and time. 

Have a beautiful, lovelymonday
& take a moment to remember. <3

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